Paula Badosa spoke on the program ‘El Larguero’ about her delicate sporting and personal situation following the publication of her letter that shocked the tennis world.
“I won’t be remembered for being the one who wins the most titles, but I want to be able to get out there,” Badosa wrote on her social media.
The Catalan shared on Instagram that “there is one thing I know for sure: I will always try with all my might. I will do whatever it takes. I know I’m far from my best, but I also know that version is still inside me.”
Paula Badosa: “There are a lot of voices going through my mind… Right now I’m at that point”
Paula Badosa explained to Manu Carreño and former tennis player Alex Corretja where she stands after the publication of this statement: “I have a lot of respect for my rivals, but I’m fighting more with myself for internal things: for fears, for voices… and if not, and if I don’t get this, and if I never get back to where I wanted to be, and if I get injured again when I’m training for months and working hard, and the moment I’m fine I relapse again and it’s not the first time it’s happened to me…”.
In the end, I’m in a situation that is what it is and I can’t control it, but it hasn’t depended on me either. It’s hard for me to accept
“There are a lot of voices going through my mind, even in the moment of competition that shouldn’t be. Sometimes it’s getting difficult to control. Right now I’m at that point,” confessed the 28-year-old tennis player.
Paula Badosa: “Give up? It doesn’t even cross my mind, really”
Paula Badosa, who is currently ranked 100th in the WTA Rankings and was world number two in 2022, made it clear that she does not intend to give up.
It’s a situation that six or seven months ago I was in one place and now it’s been taken away from me. It’s not easy to accept with positive thoughts, that’s the battle I’m living internally
“Give up? It doesn’t even cross my mind, really. It’s a difficult process. The ranking is not where you would like it to be and I can’t play tournaments that I would never have played, really,” he said.
Paula Badosa acknowledges that “in the end I am in a situation that is what it is and I cannot control it, but it has not depended on me either. It is difficult to accept”.
Sometimes I also have to take steps back and then take many more forward. So, I’ll play whatever I’m given
“It’s a situation that six or seven months ago I was in one place and now it’s been taken away from me. To come back now and not see yourself where you were before you left… It’s a bit difficult to accept, that I’m accepting it. But it’s not easy to accept with positive thoughts, that’s the battle I’m living internally,” he stressed
Badosa shared that “sometimes I also have to take steps backwards in order to take many more steps forward. So, I’ll play whatever they put me in. Whatever you get, whatever you get.”
Paula Badosa admits she had doubts about publishing her statement.
Paula Badosa admitted that “I hesitated a little bit to publish the statement, but in the end I have a voice with which people can feel reflected.”
“I love writing and it was a time when I was traveling, with music and thinking… too much,” he shared.
Badosa’s heartbreaking letter: Fear, fucking fear. How fucked up it is”
“Fear, fucking fear. How fucked up it is. Sometimes I feel like I can’t control the voices inside me. The emotions are too much and I feel overwhelmed. Doubts take over me and I feel lost in a sea of emotions.”
“There’s one thing I’m clear about: I’ll always try my hardest. I’ll do whatever it takes. I won’t be remembered for being the one who wins the most titles, but I want to be remembered for this. For these moments. For showing that Paula was able to come out.”
“Because once again I’m going to prove that I can get out. It will be very hard, but I promise to keep going until I get it.”
“And even if things don’t work out now, and there are a thousand opinions… I will continue. And I will continue. Paula is not back… but she will be.”
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